I got it out of my system! Finally figured out a way to vent... My friend has a Facebook account, but he never ever ever logs on, so I sent him a Facebook message. I let myself sink to my absolute lowest, I said some incredibly bitter and hurtful things, got it all out of my system... And woke up today feeling refreshed, like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I honestly don't think he'll ever see it, but I wrote a disclaimer at the top just in case. And it helped me a lot.
In the evening, I showed the message to my boyfriend. It was a bit scary, but it felt like he deserved to know, to see me at my lowest, most unpleasant point. And he accepted it. I did tell him it is a tiny part of who I am, but a part he needs to be aware of. I think it brought us closer. I felt happier than I have for a long time.
Work was awesome, as usual. I feel like I should talk about it more, but I don't really have much to say, except that so many customers are so lovely, and so many of the children are gorgeous, and I love them all. Can't wait until I'm in a place where I'm ready to have kids!
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I admire you.
ReplyDeleteI think it is swell that you had the courage to say what is on your mind... and on top of that let others see it. You might think it is a low vulnerable point but it is not. What you showed your boyfriend is a strong point. I good trait and something you should be proud of.
Peace and Love,
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Thanks Daniella, your support means a lot to me.
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